the thing that kills me is my 6 year old asking ''where's mom, she should be home from work right now, why doesn't she come home?" all i can telll him is i don't know. she doesn't have to witness it. i told her that one night, i said "your son is worried about you wanting to know when you're coming home" and she was like "what are you trying do huh? make me feel guilty, what the fuck does that have to do with anything?" i couldn't believe. my emotional door to her shut right then.